giToday was very challenging. Coming off a very big high (not that kind!) seeing my favorite band for the first time in concert last night (still won't tell who it is but anyone that knows me knows the answer anyway), things at work occurred today that really got me down down down.
In the corporate IT world, a "re-org" is almost a regular occurrence, where leadership for one reason or another decides to mix things up and reorganizes the various team structures. Needless to say, I was not intially happy with where I wound up on the org charts...
Not that I can honestly complain, this petty angst I feel. I should be thankful that I have a job with a decent salary. I should be thankful that I have a solid group of peers to lean on and commiserate with. I have a wonderful, supportive, and understanding family…
...But I can't seem to shake the burn that festers within. It leaves me feeling disappointed with this exposure of my very human trait of not being thankful for what I have. Instead, I waste my hate on trivial things that don't really count for crap at the end of the day. How could I let my stomach twist and retributionary thoughts run rampant in my head? I think its a very sobering situation that God has dealt me so I can take a step back and evaluate not only how I am going to cope with change (don't we all hate change?), but also my attitude in general. Am I being the best I can be (don't worry, not joining the army!), am I taking it in stride with dignity, or am I total F-up, complaining and worrying like a selfish ingrate?
Sometimes it sucks to realize that one is a selfish SOB. Ah, life - isn't it grand. I just need to remember to save my hate for things that truly deserve it.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Sunday, January 25, 2009
For a tech-savvy guy, I'm behind the times in the social networking world. Maybe it’s because I'm not most sociable of personalities. What's that, you say, you can't believe it?!? Yes, my "yellow" shoots up to disproportionable levels at certain times (at work, events with beer, etc), but I'm really a quiet soul. Ok, so quiet is not the right word - I'm hardly ever quiet. More on that at a later time. I'd like to welcome you to my blog, which will have only one common theme element - the titles of my posts will be taken from lyrics of my favorite band (you'll have to figure that one out on your own sucka!) although the blog site name CAN cause some misdirection, and will hopefully reflect the content I will be spewing forth from my brain via my fingers. This is a good challenge for me since I've always hated writing when I was in school due to being a lefty and having a weird grip (on reality) on writing instruments; it made for slow output and that sucked in school when most tasks are timed to some degree or another. Anyway, back on point - there should be no distinctive flow from post to post; on the contrary, I'll try to be a wide ranging in subject matter as possible, 'cause that’s how my mind works yo.